#251 - Changes?

I've been thinking about making an "Internet Friends Only" blog. Most people probably wouldn't understand the reasoning behind it, but honestly, it's quite simple.

I would prefer certain people not read this anymore. I started this blog somewhere around a year or two ago (too lazy to check), and at that time, I was in the peak of my internet life. The thing was created basically because I felt like having an online journal, and from there I began just spouting whatever I felt like spouting about in it so that my internet friends could keep up-to-date with me if I had been unable to catch up with them via Instant Messenger. It also worked out well for the friends that I didn't get to talk to very often; it's very easy to pop open my blog to see what's been going on in my life.

But somewhere along the way, this became a personal journal that I started to take somewhat seriously, and now I regret having ever passed the link out to any of my "real-life friends." Thinking Is A Waste Of Time is still, at it's core, an internet blog, and as such, it's not really meant to be something my offline friends were to have privy to; it's simply that at the time, I was excited to have a mini-webpage with a counter on it, and I didn't write anything serious on it - TiaWoT was more like my Livejournal. It was just there to sort of chronicle things so that you could get an idea of what I was like.

But things have changed, and I've noticed that every time that I write here lately, I've felt like I've been censoring myself on a lot of things that I really feel like I should write about. The obvious answer to all of this would be merely to keep a personal journal either on my PC or in a notebook somewhere, but I still want my internet friends to be able to read and comment here. What I don't want are silly comments from people who, despite reading here relatively frequently, still cannot seem to remember simple but important things about my life, such as my girlfriend's name.

I could also just remove the "Comments" feature, but that doesn't really solve the problem, you know?

The thing is though, I really love this little page. I'd like to be able to modify it a bit for cosmetic appearance (something I could probably convince Mimi to do one day while she's bored, since I'm sure I couldn't pull it off), but for the most part I think this is simply the right page for me. The name I picked is fitting somehow, and I doubt any blog I create after this will maintain the appeal that this one has. Furthermore, I'd then be confronted with the problem of converting all of these entries over to the new blog, which is a process that would likely take a nothorriblycomputerliterate person like myself several hours to do. I imagine I'd end up cut and pasting everything into the new one just to have it all in one place.

But basically what it boils down to is this - I don't feel like I can write here, and that's probably why I don't do it all that often. I was debating on actually making my Livejournal Friends Only and then trimming the list down to like...four people, but I don't really see a need to do that. I haven't taken Livejournal very seriously since Kate or Kate's friend got me a code for it; it's just there to be a brief posting and commenting system.

It's all up in the air right now, but I wouldn't be horribly surprised if you come here only to find archives or something. I could always go back and delete everything after I move it over, too. I was thinking just today that I should probably save all my entries on a disc somewhere just in case, so maybe I could do that and then delete them, and then repost them to my new blog for seeeccrreeettt rrrreeeaaaddddiiinnnnggg.

~Don