#262 - Minus One

I'm considering the matter fairly closed.

The personality is just too grating. The ego and the money supersedes the friendship in all of our cases, and I just don't want to be associated with it anymore. It used to be fun when we could all just get together and hang out, but then coolness set in and just hanging around with us wasn't fun for him anymore.

Seeing the Livejournal just irritates me, and not because of his post the other day about how there's a correlation between the people that hate him and how they feel about their lives. Frankly, I feel pretty fucking good. I have tons of friends, I have a girlfriend who loves me that I couldn't love more. I've got my stresses, but who doesn't?

That's pretty much all I have to say about the matter. Actually, that's not entirely true, but I know he reads this and I really don't feel like having to play comment/reply over and over. I'm sure I'll get knocked off the friends list and you and the current yes men will knock me based off snippets of posts you take from here or something, and that's fine.

If I cared what people thought about my blog and my Livejournal, I wouldn't post on them to begin with.

But do me a favor and don't bother commenting. I know you will anyway; you can't not do so, but I'm just going to delete it. I'm not interested in hearing the sides. I'm not even angry. I just don't want to read your ego-trip posts anymore. It's not personal.

If you take it personal, you take it personal, though. Whatever. It's just a Livejournal, but I know you can't let people knock you on the internet or whatever.

~Don

#261

I've got no title; I'm just updating because I feel like writing.

Lately, my back has been really fucking annoying. I'd love to get this and that groin thing checked out by a real doctor this time (and not a walk-in clinic where they didn't even check out the things I asked them to examine), but I still haven't bothered to find any kind of income. I'm stuck in this quasi-endless-causality-loop: on one hand, I'm justifiably frightened about the lump and am sick of the pain I'm experiencing, but I don't have the money to really have anything done about it without getting a job and/or insurance. However, if I get a job, I may not get insurance for at least 6 months, maybe even a year...and to get a job and do things would likely aggrivate the way I feel two-fold. Plus, if something was seriously wrong with me, I'd end up taking tons of time off to have it fixed.

But really, what I should focus on is simply exercise. Maybe I can take this pain away by getting myself back into shape? It's probably not a coincidence that the pains got worse the less I worked, because I suddenly spent so much time sitting in chairs and less time doing anything fun. Then to turn around and play DDR during that period probably didn't help much, since that's a fairly strenous activity for a back to deal with, at least when you play a lot and you've got tons of steps coming because you're playing on Maniac/Heavy mode.

So maybe I can help it? I don't know. It's just hard to motivate myself to do that -- hell, it's hard to motivate myself to do anything lately. The weather has been crappy, so going outside is sort of useless, and the road I live on is totally horrible for jogging.

I'll just have to run laps around the basement and lift some weights. I'd like to at least be in shape while I'm poor; it'll help pass the time!

Anyway, with Anime Loser Night coming up, I'm looking forward to hanging out with some of my friends this weekend. The plan is to go into Hanover to kill some time since Joe, Nick, and Jenn all have off...they're coming up early so we can go to the craft store to check out frames and such for cels. After that, it's either a little DDR or minigolf, or we may just come back and get started on the anime. Nicky should be here when she gets off work, and Drunken Will is on the bubble only because he had to get some serious work done on his foot this weekend. I've been toying with inviting a few other people, but we're dealing with limited space right now. I have other reasons for it too; but that all might change in the next few weeks.

Besides, the core group of us are having such a good time at the moment that we really don't need to go tossing in other people. It's not like the old Anime Loser Day where people were bailing on me because they either didn't like Dave or simply didn't feel like coming down there with me -- so far, these guys have all been showing up with the intent of just relaxing and hanging out. The only one I've really had trouble getting up here is Vince, but knowing how Vince is, I'm not terribly offended by it. If everyone else wanted to do it somewhere else I'd be more than willing to change the place and the plans, but everyone who's already coming up here is content to come up here at the moment, so for now the consensus vote pretty much has to win. No one else really wants to do it at their place besides Vince, and Vince's house is probably further away from Nick, Joe, Jenn, and Will then my place, so I can understand it.

I ask about this every time they're here though. I figure they'd get tired of driving, but they haven't yet. But yeah, seriously? Vince, if you actually still read here, we REALLY want you to hang with us. I know you don't care to go out much, but you're most certainly welcome.

Speaking of the Vince, hanging out at his place the other week was pretty fun; we didn't get too much done but I got to hear a fair deal about his project, so I'm getting a frame of mind regarding what he's got and where he's thinking about taking it. It's an interesting project; though perhaps a little foolhardy if he puts too much into it. I suppose, however, that if you want to make something successful you're going to have to put in some cash. At this point I'm just hoping he doesn't get bored with it after building sets and such.

Ah well. Anyway, I don't really know what else to chat about, so I'm taking off for the night.

~Don