#275 - I'm Not Broken

Or am I?

The aches and pains are all returning, with newfound fervor. It's really been difficult to work the way I have been, and I'm already starting to feel like I need to get away from it. I hate that feeling, but what do I do? Just look for another job.

In the meantime, I've been plowing through .hack games in my free time, at least when Nicky's not around. The whole life seems kind of confused at the moment; not nearly what I was expecting. Nothing seems to have improved except for the fact that I have money now. Am I really unhappy with Nicky or something?

I think about her all the time, and I don't want her to not be in my life, yet I seem to want to distance myself when she's around. Maybe it has something to do with her leaving to go to school; maybe I think we're just going to break up anyway or that it's not worth waiting for two years.

Maybe it's a lot of things. Maybe it sucks.

Well, it definitely sucks.

I really don't know what else to say though; I'm just blogging because I haven't done so.